We already buy the things that the baby needed. Then on our way home, she feels uneasy, touching her womb and it seems she’s on labor. Instead of going to our dwelling, we proceed to the hospital. I ask the Lord, are we going to spend Christmas eve in here? We supposedly celebrate it first on our new home, but it’s fine if the child is about to arrive. Only eat bread and drink water for dinner.

Then it was already early morning, she is currently exerting effort, holding my hand during natal delivery. She is yelling Lord’s name, then she was given oxygen and her blood pressure raises beyond normal that I began to pray. The doctor and the nurse are in alert; asking me, who from them would you want to live? I said both. My tears roll down on my face. What else could I do but to be there beside her and ask for God’s mercy. I’m whispering to my wife’s ears, we’re all going back home. Then she conveyed, I am not experiencing pain but … I’m catching my breath ahhhhhHHHHHHH….!

7:00 am through normal delivery, a baby boy! I am so happy, we already have a son I kisses my wife and my son’s forehead. I ask them if they are ok, all are in good state. She falls asleep and when she wakes up; she narrated her dream. She told me that she had heard cheers/laugh and not a cry from the baby and the child came out with open fist. I assisted her at the nursery section. Then we had seen him, few minutes from now, we could carry him in our arms. We returned to the room and wait there.

Our parents visited us, there are basket of fruits and roast turkey along with are rice and pasta. We are able to eat food from yuletide feast. Then when the baby was given to us, all are joyful. My wife is kinda pretty much careful. He is so delicately soft and wants to open his eyes already to see us. I was able to take picture of the time on the clock, when the child is newly born and when it’s being washed and clothed. This is the greatest Christmas Season that we ever had, received blessing from above, we are really thankful!

Heard her talking while sleeping, her fears were being carried in dreams. She said, “please don’t leave me and don’t find replacement.” I whispered to her ears, “I wouldn’t. What do you want loves?” She answered and I’ve been thinking and laughing if she really is sleeping. She said she’s craving for Roma or Milan Viva Italian or New Yorker’s pizza from Jollibee. Huh? Have I heard it right? Yes it is. Ha!ha! There’s no pizza being purchase from that foodchain. Then I ordered from Jollibee and have its packaging for the pizza. Make cut-outs to form the word pizza and paste it as label. When she already wakes up, I gave it to her then she ask what’s this? She smiled, is this a new promo? Yah, I suggested it to them for you to have ha ha! We eat and I tell her not to be emotionally depressed, it’s not good for the baby. There are newly bought fruits and milk in the chiller, be sure you’ll consume it everyday. When I’m working, just call if you need something, ok?” She sighs.

I see her writing again, trying to scheduled, from early sun bath for the baby, sterilizing the bottles, feeding, bathing etc. We’ll be asking for our mothers to come for assistance. 9months is just a short period to wait. I also notice the usual thing, eating green mangoes and white colored food. Touching my eye lashes so often and she wishes our child to inherit my height (tall). I’m trying to listen and feel her womb, gently leaning my ears beside it. We cheered when we witness the movement.

I’m fixing the room ready for the child and she been doing colorful art to decorate the area. We decided to only give educational toys such as bulding blocks and shapes, baggle/ scribble word search, chess, puzzle, flash cards etc during Christmas. In every birthday, we’ll give what he/she needs, and if the child excels in studies, it will be rewarded with wants, if possible. We are both excited for parenthood. We’ll going to have a family day every Sunday and have a date as a couple during monthsary to keep the relationship intimate. We’re going to have a happy marriage life It is really fate written in heaven. Is this the destiny that I use to wonder before? Well, I am very sure that I’m enjoying pampering my babies: my wife and our child. She takes care of me as well as if I am her eldest baby. We are partners in building an ideal home. We’ll show the world that it is still possible to have strong ties and serve a good example of obedience to God.

Two months after… seven o’clock in the morning, she had stopped her breakfast and run at the kitchen sink to vomit. I ask her, “Are you ok?” She said she’s fine. Walking back to the dining table, she fall unconscious and I am able to catch her in time. I am pretty much worried, waking her up but she didn’t respond. I rush to drive and take her at the hospital. Then vital signs are checked and held under observation. When she wakes up, the doctor ask her what did she feel beforehand. Base on the symptoms and taken examination; the physician tapped me at the shoulder. “Better take your wife to the obstetrician for next consultation,” then smiled at me, “Congratulations, she’s pregnant!” With so much joy, I embraced my wife and kisses her a lot of times though the doctor and nurses are around.

Then I notice my wife’s reaction towards the news, which made me appear exaggerated on the way I accepted the findings. I ask her why, she answered with a query. “Would you still like me even if I become fat, bloated limbs, darkening on some body areas? Will you have patience on me on my mood swings? Would you still want me though changes might happen? I hug her and pacify to cast away her anxiety. “Even your waistline from 24 or 25 turn into 34 or wider, though your color might change, one thing will remain, I am still me. The one who will love you regardless of the odds. I joked, you’ll be my huggable bear, still beautiful in my eyes. I knew and understand that all of these will occur for us to have our beloved baby Both of us should think on how we will assure that the child is healthy and prepare for his or her arrival. Finally, our blood combined, God bless us. I’ll be a loving husband to you and now a caring father to our future children. Yahoo! I am a certified Dad!

Oh yeah!% I had a good sleep last night or should I say I haven’t able to?

I am so crazy to say that I really enjoy being exhausted the whole evening and still wanting her more. I am addicted to her warm kisses and given hugs, as if my feet are above the clouds. Breathless but still craving for fragrance that soothes me well. Leaning in softness and tasting the sweetness of gift, specially intended and mine alone. The only love that I always wish is now next to me; the feeling is irrevocable and growing in each passing day. We’re like magnets of different poles, always attracted and attached. I keep myself groom at my best and she becomes more alluring and gorgeous that I can’t take my eyes off her.

It is raining outside, that adds up the mood for romance. Every charming glance, sensual touch, groovy movement suggested a need to be fill. We swear to make it exclusive, to faithfully submit ourselves to each other. To seek and to provide, be considerate and to be present. It maybe often or might be seldom but to agree on it in a reasonable time. We earned trust and gain peace of mind, making it possible for us not to be possessive and jealous. We do believe that we honestly commit our lives with fidelity. Our relationship stands at solid ground, and we are thankful that we’re together; really bind as one.

Last time it was purely talk, but now night til dawn it is scheduled for energy drain, whisper for again and again. Haha…. I can’t imagine ourselves that tough but to restore the calories losses and have enough rest on the following day. Our ever cherished weekends!

We’ve got spicy marinated rolled sirloin, stuffed with pickles, carrot, hotdog, cheese and boiled egg on it. Could you imagine that dish, yummy we eat it. I let her taste Smirnoff, I knew she wasn’t drinking vodka but we sip a little of it. We really have cola and water for drinks. Then we ate the chocolates I bought and these are her favorite, galaxy and kisses. Patchi chocos weren’t available, I supposedly purchase it for her, I’ll just reserve it for our anniversary. Am I waiting for aprodisiac effect ?

Then right after the dinner, I quickly brush, took a shower and pretend to sleep on the bed. Finally it was her turn to take a bath. Then when she supposedly lay herself down, she saw the tulip and a note for her “I miss you so much love!” She kisses me on the lips but I haven’t open my eyes that wide yet. I am still waiting for her to do something more. She walks near the closet and get the sexy lingerie that I gave her long before. I’m biting my lips not to speak, I’m watching her undress and wear it for the first time. Ohh my goodness, watta sight! I am heat up, but wait… why did she sleep on the couch? I want her to be beside me, no at top of me, or me at top of her, no I want her closer to me. I let her sleep half an hour; then I carry her in my arms and lay her on bed.

I can see her curves, and the nicest parts are seen through thin laces. I want to pull out the strings and uncover everything but when she had awaken, I put the tulip stem clipped on my lips. Then I kisses her, she said sorry if she hadn’t given herself to me and let me wait. I place my forefinger, warning her to halt from speaking and continuously kisses her. Stimulate her, both are electrified as my lips and hands are so excited and enjoying in exploring the hidden. I let her sit on my lap. Untie the strings and pull all down from shoulders to toes. I already avail my rights and she had it too from me. Feel so drowned with so much emotions that I can’t express it on one word but to hear us moan many times. The thorough details are between me and my wife. We are looking forward for more and do new maneuver, treats to intensify and a sort of good exercise haha…

Blessed Friday, there are still week end :”> Bathing together, dessert before resting, delicious food, the care and the love. Really wants me to come home always….

(Citation: video from youtube.com made by videologger123)

She’s bathing and I open the door with a duplicate key. She immediately hid her bareness by sitting and told me, “why are you here? My goodness!” I just make alibis, “I thought the door was left locked and I need to pee. She said that I should better use the comfort room downstairs. “Well sorry hon, I’m already here.” I moved out and felt very deprived. She closes her eyes to resist and asking myself why is she doing it to me? Good thing she forgot that a glass window, visibly seeing what’s inside the bathroom; thanks for this interior design. Gosh!#% am a voyeur having a peek on my wife’s body while hiding beside the curtain that covers it. I’ve got it hardened and squirt without stroking; just merely watching her. Lucky soap, water, feminine wash but most of all her hands that are now touching the skin. Is this what I only could avail, to stare?

I have to do something to have what I want. I’ll considered it as a reward by stopping what she hates, to completely move away from smoking. Then I’ll lessen my talks, silent but charming. Everytime I’ll change my shirt, I’ll make sure that she sees me and spraying my cologne all over. I will no longer stay very late at night and try to sleep earlier not to entertain some thoughts of having it. She will definitely notice the sudden change and will permit me atlast haha… I can imagine us having many rounds. So crazy, laughing while viewing and planning. Then when she was already done, I run and jump over our bed and pretending already sleeping. I act like I wake up and go to the bathroom (because I need something to be rinse ).

I don’t want to get mad at her; she already mention it before that she don’t want me to get disappointed that I might be seeing the opposite from what I expect. Is it humbleness or boasting? I like what I see but too sad that eyes are only access for now. I don’t want to force her if she’s not yet ready.

Few days after, wow I can’t believe I was able to get rid of the vice that fast, my hunger really done it well. An officemate dare to offer an indecent proposal and showing herself up to me but my mind is on my wife and I was able to resist temptation. I refused, rejected it, I’m contented with my good life not to have blemish on it with dirt. No room for trouble and interruption.

I buy tulip, chocolates and drive home with full of anticipation. I texted her to cook spicy dish for dinner. It would be a sizzling night, I’m sure.

Guess what he always ask me to take off his necktie and unbuttons his longsleeves everytime he arrives from work. He snorrs when he sleeps, is it because he is very tired? I turn him in a side view angle for him to breathe well. Every monthsary he gives me flowers of any kind. I am happy that we are doing the household chores together. We do grocery as well. We watch DVD, play badminton and other games. He always assist me and wouldn’t let me carry the whole load. It is a nice feeling to have a very supportive husband. He often kisses me, as usual as breathing haha….

He can leave his phone active on desk without hiding anything from me. I had seen him how he tries to avoid vices, drinking is seldom; but smoking, lessens a stick a day until only got it one daily. I ask him if ever he wasn’t able to fully stop it, he must do it outside the house so that it wouldn’t be seen by our future children. He understands me, how we want to upbring them in good practices so to avoid bad habits to expose. Hopefully, he could make it; “changing is gradual and always possible.” He couldn’t expect me to buy those stuffs to tolerate it.I also explain about wise stewardship of money. He got a long patience for me, instead of being offended he knew how to listen. The thing that I hardly knew, “to listen.” He brushes his teeth to keep his fresh breath so we could talk well with eye contact. He also knew that I’ve got sensitive lungs without filter. He admits that getting rid of it was necessary for our sake. We really want each other to live longer so we’re avoiding things that may stress both of us.

He didn’t make alibis to justify his weaknesses. He keeps on boosting my self esteem for I often heard and feel his appreciation. I feel how much he values me. He loves me more than the things he likes to do. He deliver comments in a polite manner and with motivation to improve. My opinions are open to his ears and included me in making decisions. He is thinking and aware of what I may feel. If there is a matter that needs to be discuss, he stays until we solved it. We honestly specify the mistakes and how we will correct it.

Our relationship may not be perfect but the important is we handle it in tandem. I am learning from him each day, we both grow because our minds are open to accept suggestions to strengthen our foundation. We dedicate ourselves to each other and do what we can. We have a very good communication, everything seem complement. We continuously discover and deal with it hand in hand.

His sweetness is just enough, not overly, not lacking. I can see how the word “reciprocate” is express in action.

I notice her wearing pajama, shirt with shorts when she’s at the house. Haven’t seen her in lingerie at bedroom and we sleep right away after a long talk. Even if we weren’t doing it still, I enjoy every meal at the dining area; she served food like I am eating in a fine resto. She cooks well. When she prepared dishes, I’ll be the washer, vice versa. Guess what, we have separate laundry baskets for pants, shirts and underwears; she wants segregation and washing it by batch. It is funny that she is posting guidelines at the kitchen, comfort room and at the doorstep outside. She wants shoes and outdoor slippers left at the shoe rack so the floor would be free from dust. She don’t want a dog being played within the area because the hair of it might fall at the sofa or at the ground. She might hold it but quickly wash her hands with an antibacterial soap. She starts and ends the day reading the Bible, me too. All her routines are scheduled, once not followed, she will yell and feel bad. I am wondering if she didn’t get tired of such systematic and overly organized lifestyle. I want her to relax for a bit but it seems like it is impossible for her. Though I am helping her too in some tasks, when she looks exhausted, she will tell that she wasn’t good at managing her time.

Hey… wait, “I am not making any pressure for you to do or be too occupied, pause for awhile.” Only to know that she’s scared for me to be disappointed and regret of choosing her. “C’mon… don’t accuse me of things that I am not doing, amazing!” She’s making assumptions, having herself sad and bitter if she wasn’t satisfied with her work and thinking that I might left her because of that. “You tend to forget that I am here to fill you up, your partner to fill what’s lacking. You need me, aren’t you?” She hugs me and emotionally said that she wants herself capable to give almost everything that I wouldn’t tend to compare or glance to some other girls. Or to expect more or similar to what my mother had showed me. “I never had treated you like a slave, and the truth is I want to take care of you as my baby. I am so sorry that you’re so pressured because of me. Do only what you can, and I’ll do the remaining.” Wiping tears from her cheeks.

This late afternoon, I bought her a sexy lingerie but she said that she will just wear it on some other day. I can see her eyes wanting it and her smile but then she is somewhat suppressing herself. I caress her hips then she shows a card saying “restricted.” I ask her why, she said she got her period. Yes, she had. Sigh%#!…..

Wow, we are in our new dwelling, still a void space, starting from scratch. We painted, cleaned and arranged everything within the area the whole day. We ordered pizza and meal from delivery express because we’re both tired already. It’s fun seeing our fave color of walls, own choice of furnitures, appliances that we want are all set. We really enjoy it but when we need to refresh ourselves, silence fills the room. We were still still doing it separately. It’s fine, we’ll get there soon, time that she wouldn’t be shy anymore and realize that we’re already married.

In the evening, she interviewed me about what I do want for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Combining our favorites, that she jots down notes so menus would be fix for a month. She really wants everything to be less hassle or free from it if possible. She also scheduled her work and household chores. She asked me that I should be in-charge in maintaining the dog and the odyssey clean. Never to let the hound get into the house because it’s not allowed; she wants sanitation. I understood.

She told me that plants at the garden should be following a specific landscape. Flowers infront, vegetables at the side, fruit trees at the backyard. The idea was nice but asking me what to suggest, I leave more of the planning on her because she usually stays here so often. I am just here to contribute in helping her to meet our conducive, comfortable surroundings. I want her to be happy and don’t want to spoil her momentum but to appreciate her dedication. I knew she feels good when being heard and I want her to feel that way.

“Wife, after all these, we need to take some rest and you got something to be scheduled, so be ready for it. Haha….”

Husband

On the following days, right after the wedding, we need to attend gatherings on his town and same thing in my province. Both kins will prepare celebration in welcoming us a couple and invited those who weren’t included on the guest list during the main event.

We supposedly have recorded our reasoning for many were asking common question, “Why we weren’t invited on the main occasion?” Do we really need to explain? It is already through, we were sticking within the budget. Then another query, “Why did you not let your relative participate on the entourage as flower girl, ring bearer, bridesmaids or groomsmen?” Gosh!# We weren’t that rich to spend exceeding from the normal number of pairs. Jealousy, hurt feelings, judged discrimination are so unreasonable. They should have understand that it is not grandeur feast, simple but not just executed. What matters to us is how we will start our life together, a sense of practicality. Where we will live, payment for electric and water bills, etc are of major concern.

Anyway, these days will pass and will be forgotten. Sorry we can’t please everybody. There would always be comments, intrigues/rumors, complains and to accept it’s usual. Not to be affected that much for we don’t mean to offend anybody. We can’t afford to meet all their suggestions or demands. We weren’t oblige to comply because it is our choice to make and we were the ones who will provide money for the expenses.

In this welcome party, we were shock, same with our respective parents. There were people who weren’t informed came and notice that they were packing food before leaving. It is not we don’t want to share but we were just thinking about the real visitors. Actually, some were taking along with them an extended companion/s. Good thing the dishes are enough to feed. But stressful to entertain them all, also to mention that souvenirs are still asked. We just laughed and said it’s only limited. We appreciate their atttendance and gifts but we look forward more to having their considerations, not to appear like that we need to make it up to them or explain further.